such strong little words

who knew that such little words could invoke such emotion... "i'm sorry"

yes, those little words can stir such emotion. whether it's a friend comforting you in a time of distress, confusion, or hurt. an old flame letting you know that he hurt you. or a bank telling you they can't help you with your dream. recently 2 of the 3 of these happened to me.

an old boyfriend apologized for the hurt he caused me years ago. i have finally been able to let go of the anger and resentment i held towards him. he really has no idea how much that really meant to me. i really think that's all i've ever needed to TRULY move on and COMPLETELY let go. i cried.

and today i got news from the bank. zak and i had applied for a loan so that we could pay for our wedding. i was told after lots of tweaking and deliberation we were ultimately denied. i cried.

now, i know that i'll never be given a situation i can't handle and i know money is just money. but we really wanted something so nice and we were hoping that we'd be able to use the loan to just pay everything up front and slowly pay back over the next couple years. i know there are people worse off than me financially and others with much more important worries, but i really wanted my dream wedding. sorry if that sounds selfish.

so, with time and prayers i know it will all work out. it always does. i just never knew how much those little words could tear you apart or build you up.