Sunday, December 24, 2006

lots of randomness

ok... there's been a lot going on lately and not enough time to get on here and cover it. so here goes...

first of all, merry christmas! tonight was the first christmas eve in about 3 years i didn't have to close at work... zak, ken and i celebrated our christmas this evening b/c tomorrow i leave for ohio and zak will have to work anyways (yes, poor ken gets left behind with the day off!). it was magical to me. we all bustled around the house getting things all prepped and ready and made ourselves dinner and exchanged gifts. to me the greatest gift was the the feeling i had once all the food had been made and we were all about to sit down to enjoy it together. call me old-fashioned, but that was really the coolest. christmas has always been about coming together with those you love, but i had never really had to do it for myself. my family normally does a traditional "no meat" slovak dinner with sour mushroom soup and pieroges. well, zak's idea of christmas celebration is steak.... so we compromised and cooked steaks on the grill and i made the soup and pieroges. ken of course ate chicken and french fries.

second, i apologize to those that i haven't really been responding to lately. i have been very sick the last few days and last night i had my worst night! i went home from work early for the first time ever and then passed out on the couch. i slept for about 12-13 hours with a minor interruption from zak with some soup and cold/flu medicine. i also apologize to miss kate michele as i will not be visiting your new home while i'm in town unless it's by drive by... i will NOT compromise the health of those little ones! you've got enough health issues to deal with with them. also, i will call you with the details from the previous post.

third, a few days ago i received our first wedding gifts! my cousin and his wife from new york sent us a few things from our registry! how exciting was that!?! it's kind of starting to set in... especially how close we're getting!

fourth, we found out penn state was going to the outback bowl and of course we had to buy tickets... well, now i have to work and can't get out of it. so, if there is anyone that would like to use my ticket and hang out with a couple guys that are penn state fans, please let me know... the cost to do so would be $65 for the ticket and whatever you need for travel, etc! hehe. although with the guys you'd be going with i might have to GIVE the ticket away and PAY for travel expenses... hehe. j/k.

fifth, did i mention i'd been sick and am going to be traveling tomorrow?! i need to finish my laundry, get packed and get some sleep!

so... merry christmas to all and to all a good night.

Thursday, December 21, 2006

such strong little words

who knew that such little words could invoke such emotion... "i'm sorry"

yes, those little words can stir such emotion. whether it's a friend comforting you in a time of distress, confusion, or hurt. an old flame letting you know that he hurt you. or a bank telling you they can't help you with your dream. recently 2 of the 3 of these happened to me.

an old boyfriend apologized for the hurt he caused me years ago. i have finally been able to let go of the anger and resentment i held towards him. he really has no idea how much that really meant to me. i really think that's all i've ever needed to TRULY move on and COMPLETELY let go. i cried.

and today i got news from the bank. zak and i had applied for a loan so that we could pay for our wedding. i was told after lots of tweaking and deliberation we were ultimately denied. i cried.

now, i know that i'll never be given a situation i can't handle and i know money is just money. but we really wanted something so nice and we were hoping that we'd be able to use the loan to just pay everything up front and slowly pay back over the next couple years. i know there are people worse off than me financially and others with much more important worries, but i really wanted my dream wedding. sorry if that sounds selfish.

so, with time and prayers i know it will all work out. it always does. i just never knew how much those little words could tear you apart or build you up.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

blessed

i think for the most part i take life for granted. i forget how delicate and intricate it is, yet how simple it is at the same time. let me explain...

it's intricate because so many pieces and people are involved. even if very small. yes, that person you know at work but don't REALLY know has made some sort of an impact on your life, even if all they've ever done is said hello and how was your day? people you meet once at a gathering can touch you or teach you things you never thought you'd ever feel or learn.

it's delicate because it's risky! life can and everything about it can be taken away from you in an instant or over a period of a few months or years.

it's simple because what it comes down to is love. those around you are important. you do everything you can to make them happy and safe and they (hopefully) do the same for you.


i am truly blessed with friends and family that have touched me and played such key roles in shaping me into the woman i now am and will continue to grow into. i am blessed with a healthy life with minor bumps in the road. i have 2 friends right now dealing with such incredible obstacles in their lives and they handle it with such grace and strength. kate and kristal, my hat's off to you! you are both such incredibly strong women who don't deserve what you are being put through, but i know He has a plan for it all. i can only learn to take advantage of the days with the people that i love from you both. thank you for humbling me to realize these things. i pray that when i am faced with such incredible obstacles that i may have the strength and grace to proceed as you both have.

so to sum up... life is short and precious... soak it all in and enjoy what you have! we are all truly blessed!

Friday, December 08, 2006

2 hour drive for a date

so last night the shuttle was supposed to launch. zak REALLY wanted to go see this b/c he had never seen a night launch before (neither have i) and they are really rare. in fact after this one finally launches they are saying that it may never happen again.

anywho... we left clearwater about 3:15 or so and arrived in titusville (just across the water from cape canaveral... they wouldn't let us any closer without passes of some sort) right about 5:30. the drive wasn't so bad, it was really the sitting around in the dark in the cold waiting to see if they were actually going to launch. i know you northerners are laughing now about my "in the cold" comment, but it was quite chilly with those winds right off the water! anywho... we waited and waited and waited... and about 5 minutes before the schuduled launch i guess they decided to scrub (cancel). so no pictures of the take off, no exciting view, no brightness in the sky... just time to turn around and leave.

traffic was crazy, so we decided to stop at one of the little plazas for a bite to eat and wait for the traffic to subside. we came across a place that was a little bar/bowling alley/little restaurant. it was a cute little place, really nice clean bowling alley i might add! those are often hard to come by. we decided to order some munchies and played a few games of pool. we had a good couple of games and had a lot of fun while listening to some pretty terrible kareoke! it really sounds like nothing, but to me it was a date. something we just don't do much anymore. i really kind of miss those days. don't get me wrong, i love just hanging out as much as he does, but to actually go out together and do something together, it's just rare anymore. and i soaked up every minute of it!

so thank you NASA for scheduling that launch on a day we both had off. despite the fact that we didn't get to see the launch and drove a total of 4 hours, i had a wonderful time!

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

It's contagious

no, i'm not referring to diseases... LAUGHTER! (moods in general are contagious, but that's another blog for another day) laughter is something that's actually GOOD to be contagious!

today (which hasn't been the most easy going of days) i went to the bank with my roomate ken. he finished quicker than me and said he'd go out to the car and wait. when i finally finished i walked outside to go to the car, but he started driving over to pick me up. so being the goofball that i am, i hiked up my pant leg to about knee level revealing a very white leg with some gray socks that went about half way up my calf. unknown to me, there was a guy behind me that saw me and he bent over laughing which in turn made my roomate ken laugh. then as i got into the car and sat down i was now facing this mystery man and he lifted his pant leg revealing arguile socks almost up to his knee and some fairly white flesh as well. which made both ken and i laugh hysterically.

so, the lesson of the day... in a world that's so serious, it's good to know there's still silliness. do silly things. it will make you feel better and who knows? it just might make someone else laugh and brighten a gloomy day!

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Tag

ok, so miss kate michele you put out this little thing for tag on your blog... 6 strange things about yourself.

So despite the fact that it would probably be easier to list 6 "normal" things about myself b/c i'm SO strange here's my 6 strange things about me.

1. rainy days are my favorite... as long as there's no thunder and lightning. i will splash in puddles and run in the rain!

2. i'm a very touchy feely person... i'm marrying someone who isn't!

3. i can't fall asleep without some next to me... and yes i HAVE to be touching them. if there isn't someone there, i need lots of pillows to curl up next to.

4. i'm probably the closest thing to a son my father ever had... i love the outdoors, i'm not afraid to get dirty and i'm not too into make-up and shoes and the like... i'm pretty simple.

5. i love food but i don't really like to cook too much... i'm pretty lazy in the kitchen. guess i just love to EAT food (though most wouldn't ever guess that!)!

6. i have an extreme fear of needles... i'm ok with blood, guts, dead bodies, all that, just NOT needles! sorry to the people who thought i should be a doctor/nurse, i'll never get past the needles!

wow... that was already 6. i could probably keep going for hours! hehe. oh well. those were the 1st 6 i could think of.

Saturday, November 25, 2006

it's been awhile

well, i know it's been awhile since i last posted. things have been rather busy with work and what not. i also sometimes have a difficult time getting out exactly what i want to say. i guess i sometimes fear being judged or riduculed for things i do or say.

on that note i'll share the condensed version of my last couple weeks as i have been away. so, as i just mentioned i spent the last 2 weeks away from home with a bunch of people i didn't know until i got there. i helped do a new store opening in Ocala. going into it i was scared and excited. now that i'm home i can't wait to do the next one! i'm thirsty for more. i don't know if it was the experience itself or the people i met and became good friends with or what, but i want more! the whole thing was just auss-um... errr awesome for those that don't get my outback lingo. we worked long days and partied long nights, leaving little time for sleep... but that's what these things are all about (so i've been told). i can't even share the details, because unless you were there you would never understand. to any of you out there that were there, i'd like to share a few things...

Amanda- my roomie, you were a crazy girl and i wish you the best with your new man! wink wink! we'll have to hit up walmart again without pooh bear cause he just wasn't any fun there!

Pooh Bear - since i just mentioned you, i know i still owe you a back rub. i'm sorry again i skipped out on you that last night. that was selfish of me. hope you can forgive me!

LJ - tell wendy hello the next time you see her haha. also, "just 5 more minutes"... nuff said

Archie - i miss your hugs! what's the next event you'll be doing?! sign me up! hehe.

Tony - "just take out 2 noodles" and "just 5 more minutes" to you too!

Lynn - i think you need a rematch in mini golf... damn that security guard for butting in!

Glenn and Shay- GO BLUE!!!!

Miraya - thanks for letting me share all my girlie stories with you.

Sharon and Carolyn - thanks for inviting me to stay one extra night! and sign me up for the next opening!

Thursday, October 26, 2006

taking it a little too far

ok, so i know some people are very attached to their pets. most are thought of as a member of the family... some even treated like children by their owners. last night however, i saw it taken too far. while at work, a lady came in with a stroller and the front was covered with a blanket. now we all assumed that there was a child in there, but after closer examination, there was actually a beagle in there. now, as much as that disturbed me i let it go. like i said before, some people really believe their pets are their children. then the clincher came... the server that was taking care of her found out that the dog was clothed... that's right, dressed up! come on people... dressing up an animal and carting it around in a stroller is just taking it too far! love your pets and spoil them, but draw the line somewhere please!?

Sunday, October 22, 2006

reality sets in

so a few months ago my best friend from high school let me know that a guy each of us had dated in jr high and high school was going to be getting married. yesterday she sent me a link to view the pictures. while i never thought of him as "the one who got away" or anything like that, he was my first boyfriend and first kiss, so naturally there is a slight attachment that will always be there.

anywho... i first opened the folder to view them and my first thought was "wow he's so grown up!" and "they look so happy and beautiful together" but then i realized... i'm right there too! holy crap! I am going to be getting married soon too... we're not the teenagers that i still remember us all being all too often. we're all in our mid 20's now and GROWN UPS! wow. so if we're all in our 20's now, where'd the time go?! it feels like yesterday that we were all hanging out at football games and going to school dances... with CHAPERONES.

seriously, time has flown by and i have a feeling it won't ever slow down! so here's my thought. i need to (we all need to) enjoy the moments that we can. they will fly by so fast and before we know it we'll be retired and living in florida... oh wait... i've already got half that down!

Wednesday, October 11, 2006



me and my honey. this is one of my favorite pics of the 2 of us!

love thy neighbor...

ok. growing up in a christian household and community, i was always taught to "love thy neighbor." however, a week ago, my nieghbor pushed me to the limit!
It all started Sunday, Zak(the hubby-to-be) was off and went to the beach to drink and watch football with his buddies and i went to work. Part way through my shift i got a very short voicemail from a very pissed off fiance. it stated that "[his] wallet, keys, and phone were all stolen. F$@#!" we were able to communicate using a friend's phone. and he was able to get the car towed using another friend's AAA membership (thank goodness for friends!). Finally at about 3:30am the car was towed and left in the parking lot across the street from our house (the truck couldn't manage it into our driveway).

The next day came. Zak and i had to car pool and he needed me to run some errands and whatnot while he was working to try to start piecing things back together. i had the evening off from work and decided after all the chaos i was going to go out to the mall and shop among running a couple other errands. as i'm leaving my house the landlord shows up asking for rent checks (which i wasn't expecting!) and to lecture us about the yard (it was a little behind in it's maintenance). while the landlord and i were chatting and we were both heading to our cars, the lady from the business across the street comes out and interrupts us.

lady: "exCUSE me! is this one of your cars?"

me: "yes, that's my fiance's car."
my thought: dumbass, you know it's one of our cars we've lived here for 6 months and you're always out walking that damn dog of yours... and it's not like his car is very common!

lady: "WELL, i don't mind it over the weekends, but during the business week i'd appreciate it if you wouldn't park your cars there!"

me: (continuing to stay as calm as possible) "i'm sorry mame. it's just that zak had his wallet, keys, and phone all stolen yesterday. we had to have the car towed and left here."

lady: "how long is it gonna be there?!"
me: "i'm not sure. maybe a few days?"
lady: "WELL! why didn't someone come tell us! our office is just RIGHT THERE!? it was very inconsiderate of you not to come tell us!"

me: "i'm sorry mame. we didn't think to come and let you know the situation, and i truly apologize"

i left and ran errands.

the next morning zak tried to start his car and it wouldn't. he thinks the alarm system drained the battery. so he pulled my car into the parking lot and parked it sideways across a couple parking spaces so it wouldn't be right in the middle and that he'd be able to jump the car. he was still unsuccessful and had a ride waiting to take him to work. i had to leave about 5-10 minutes after he did so i didn't really think to move my car since i'd be leaving soon. i come out to leave and the lady starts yelling at me AGAIN telling me how inconsiderate it was of me to have my car parked the way it was! i'm sorry, but when people come at me and start verbally assaulting me, i tend to retreat... and i did into my car (i was also running about 5 min late for work too!). she told me i was "running away" as i was getting into the car. hell yeah i was, wouldn't you?

so i get back from work and i decided i'd go and apologize for being "inconsiderate" and for "running away." when i went to talk to her, she told me she didn't appreciate my attitude with her that morning... oh yes, she went there!

MY attitude?! i'm sorry, but she was the one chasing after and yelling at me! TWO DAYS IN A ROW! and for what? a damn car parked in an UNMARKED parking lot that is ALWAYS EMPTY! no, seriously... the only cars that are ever there are hers, the couple of trucks for their company and maybe one or 2 others. after some serious words were said, as i had had enough of playing nice and calm since all she did was attack me. she told me we had until monday to get the car out of the lot or it would be towed! i'm sorry, but nowhere does it say, "private lot" or "parking for the cabinet corner only"... nothing! just a usually empty lot!

not once through the whole ordeal did she ever say "oh my that's awful what happened" or "i'm sorry" or "is there anything i can do?" i just don't understand how someone who runs a business and deals with customers would talk to their NEIGHBOR that way! i guess money talks there and if you're not a customer, forget being treated like a human being!

and the moral of the story is...
have a little compassion for those around you. when something bad happens to someone, say "i'm sorry," maybe even offer to help, even if there's nothing you can do or the person declines, at least that person knows that you were willing to try. i'm a big believer in karma and if you're nasty to others, it will come back to bite you in the ass... so if being nice just for the sake of being nice doesn't work for you, at least remember there's always karma!

Monday, October 09, 2006

No Worries?!

Ok, since this is the innagural post of No Worries?!, I thought i should share the theory behind the name. First, I say it a lot... why? because I work for Outback Steakhouse. I love working there, but i come across some crazy things there (and outside of work) that cause me to get a bit aggrevated. I really try to live the "No Worries" philosophy, but sometimes things happen and i'm just like "WTF?!"... so here's to trying, but not always succeeding! NO WORRIES?!?!